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Gadis Melayu Aku...... Kau sudah terlalu hanyut.....

Aku lihat perempuan bangsaku semakin tersadai layu disinari kelamnya mentari,
demi kerana nama, royalti dan ingin dikenali,
diri sanggup menjadi abdi,
sehinggakan isu tetek dan pundek juga seperti menjadi satu bahan jenaka bagi empunya diri,
inikah namanya segedung ilmu yang ingin dikongsi?
inikah ertinya sebuah kepuasan yang kononnya dicari?
menghalalkan yang batil walau sebenarnya sedang bersekongkol dengan kejahilan sendiri,
mengadu domba, mencela sesama insan dan membuka sehelai demi sehelai kain yang membaluti,
walau berpakaian sudah aku rasakan seperti bertelanjang kini,
di manakah hilangnya sifat duri semalu yang telah sebati dengan perempuan melayu asli?

Biarkanlah…
mereka ini adalah pendukung sekularisme,
mereka berdiri di atas tiang-tiang kemodenan yang dibawa oleh illuminati,
walau dengan sindiran mereka akan tetap gagah berdiri,
menelusuri telunjuk yang pernah menumpahkan darah nenek moyang sendiri,
boleh juga jadi inilah pengertian pemikiran terbuka bagi wanita masa kini.

Sudah….
Srikandi melayuku usah kau hanyut lagi,
jangan dedahkan keaiban diri untuk dikenali,
usah kau takbur dengan harta yang dipinjamkan Ilahi,
telah lupakah kau bahawa kecantikan itu akan hilang dimakan usia nanti,
badan dan wajah yang kau banggakan itu akan mereput di alam kubur itu yang pasti,
telah terjadi mereka yang lahir terdahulu daripada kami,
Mungkin bukan saat ini tapi percayalah ianya akan berlaku esok hari.


-monolog si cacing

Killed by the lions

Your cat died, whats the deal?

But now..

now I know how it feels like..

I followed the murder trail, the blood and the fur but I can't find the body.

Can't blame them because they are animals.

It is very hard to accept.

See you in the afterlife foxtrot.

life must go on, that's what winners do.

I'm going to..

Amsterdam, 

should follow siva, manjit and polah back then. Until now I don't know why I did'nt go. Study for exams? Pfft, you didn't.

 I'm going to Amsterdam one day. Probably when my lil brother pursue his masters. Insyaallah 2 years from now.

Going to Amsterdam, not for the weed, the red light district, the windmills, the clogs and the tulips. But for honour. 

Nusantara 1.0

My final year project for my degree. And my first fully functional built from scratch. Interested? contact me, be happy to help.

Click the link for video.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RQSq9IUWB3I

How to remember the months of the Islamic calendar.

Hate is baggage

Kevin McCallister

Kevin McCallister in home alone. Unlucky for him to be forgotten in every family holiday. Hope he's not always alone when he's 25.

and a happy new year.

Wedding song

Hate your job, your parents, your friends and your life?

What is nikmat in english?

'Nikmat' is why one must be grateful for what he or she has. It takes just a simple problem like having tooth cavity, and you won't be able to eat a delicious steak without having to get a tooth pick after that. Or having a peptic ulser, you won't be able to indulge most of the food served at your friends festivity.

The ability to dispose excess waste  in our body. Imagine having trouble with that task. Thats 'nikmat'.

Hate your job? One must be grateful because there are many others out there still 'menanam anggur'. Please don't label me as being blindly loyal. In my opinion, one must keep moving. A job is only a platform, for instance if you work as a toilet cleaner. That will not be your job for life. You know yourself, everyone is destined to achieve great things. Everyone has there own great expectations. Like Rocky said, 'You're better that that!!'.

If you still give excuses then talk to this man, he'll cheer you up.

Kak Rumi is leaving, she has completed her service to Tok Mak and the house for two years. That is one of the 'nikmat' that I will miss. Kak Rumi can be compared to Alfred from Batman. What will batman do without Alfred?

Looking at a positive view, It will give me more freedom to govern myself as for all this while I was a lazy like a fat prince who lives in his gold palace. But the problem is, without Kak Rumi, Tok Mak will have no one to talk to. We hope to find another Kak Rumi for you Tok Mak, insyaalllah.

Breakfast after cycling from Permatang Pauh to Batu Ferringhi, better than sex.

Why the sudden

For a while I thought I'm going to give up blogging. There are so many ideas, stories to share. So much I don't know where to start. It's my generation where young people don't use diaries anymore to write their expression. In my generation we type, and the laptop has replaced the old book and pen for so much more use.

Blogging is where I think I can improve my english, learn, give ideas. And there is this other classified intention, hidden remotely in the corner of my brain.
A hope, in a clenched fist while boarding a plane to an alien country imitating the poem from Si Tanggang's journey home poem. To discover that living life is more than just saying and writing promises.
what the flick,

Starting next month I'll stop going to the stadium. I need to use the money for something else. So, goodbye Farah, M, Ck. Not forget Kai, Kimi, Joe, Chia and all the other guys. Espeacially Bk whom I learn a lot about the real meaning of muay. You guys are family and I hope someday everything that I have learned I will share to the community. I'm going to open my own, 'Coffee Gym'. Where people come to train the five elements of S.P.I.E.S.

I stop going to the gym for a reason. I planned take mandarin classes. If not because of the limitations of my time and my financial I would have took up both. It took me three nights to think about this decision. My passion had to be sacrificed and I believed it is a good thing. As my beloved friend of my once said, 'benda yang kita suka tu tak semestinya baik untuk kita', and vice versa..

Found a class in Puchong, I would prefer a class in Shah Alam. Would be better if I got company. It's not a luxury I currently have, .. wishful thinking.

And I think the guitar has to go. I haven't played it anymore. So many projects, so many options so little timee...

then, what happened to the plan of playing 'Rocket' for her.

have to think about it though. What I really want actually,..