Apsara

8/11/2012

A day of loss,
Early in the morning. Kak Rumi told me Apsara's gone. Maggie killed her.



The day before, Bagheera took a dump in my closet. I went Apeshit on those cats. But its not long before I get to my senses and forgive them. I need them. Apsara, Akila, Zambezi and Bagheera. They calm me down.

She went wandering in our neighbours backyard. I won't blamed Maggie. She is just curious. Before I'm off to work I wanted to say hi to Maggie as usual, but she hides away from me. Maybe she felt guilty about what had happen. Auntie Julie buried Apsara, rest in peace Apsara.
So now only Akila, Bagheera and Zambezi left. They must be sad.

The incident reminds me of the reality of life, when you're young there will be a lot of trials and temptations to test you. Among all of the friends and love ones that we know. Not everyone will survive. Some become corrupt, some die. In life, one must be strong and try the best not to go into the killing zone. And if one entered that zone, try the very best to survive and live to tell about it.

Everything we have in life, is only borrowed  from Allah.
I won't shed a tear over Apsara. Shes gone and thats it.

You like to bite my fingers. Now I'll miss those moments.

Talking about wanting to have everything life can offer

As I lay on my bed, it is asr calling. I was thinking about taking a nap. But I went to the mosque anyways. During abolution, I saw this handsome chap with cructhes preparing himself for prayer. He came with another good looking chap who drove a yellow myvi. Makes me think for a while. If that guy with handicap have the effort and able to attend Allah's calling, why couldn't abang gedang perkasa like me fail to go to the mosque which is just a 3 min walk.

Sometimes, it is so easy to do something that can only last for a moment. And it feels hard to do a simple thing that can benefit in long term. 

But when you know you have to do it, you know you have to do it whether you like it or not.